Living In the NOW.

Sometimes we change, sometimes life forces us
to change.

Journal Entry No.1

 Lately some stressful situations have opened my eyes and made me realize some important things about life.

Living in the moment has always been something I struggled with. I don't think I knew it then but I do now, which means I can pay attention to it and correct it. I've been in college for a while now and as I'm getting to the end of my college expirience some things have just now started to be more clear to me. I have realized some very important things from my own experience, as well as listening to the experiences of fellow classmates and teachers. While its important to not compare yourself to others, because everyone has had different circumstances its wise to at least listen to those who have lived moments you have not yet lived. More times than not there is something to be learned. There are so many amazing instructors who not only teach but run their own companies outside of class. Its important to take advantage of having such people near you to ask questions and learn from.

I am studying Graphic Design in an interdisciplinary art school, which basically means regardless of what classes I take I will get the same degree. Because in Art school what matters is your portfolio. This ultimately means I have to curate my classes in accordance to what I want in the end, what skills and knowledge I want to have. My school has a visual communications (Graphic Design) program that in fact makes it hard on transfer students to go in and take full advantage of the courses. For one, you cannot take some classes if you didn't not complete the one prior to it because there are pre requisites. I understand why this is.. but I don't like it. It has made me be at the school much longer which brought me a lot of stress and anxiety, because I kept feeling like okay, one more year and Ill be able to live my life how I want. SO whenever something didn't go according to plan, that time would extend. I was under this impression that my life would start after I graduated.. but lately Ive been re-thinking that idea and it made me realize my life is happening RIGHT NOW. Not tomorrow not in a year, because that is never guaranteed. Sure there are opportunities that come with time, but there is always something to be done NOW. So I am constantly reminding myself that everything is okay and what really matters is now. Also that nothing last forever and that can be a good thing. This realization so far has made me slow down and process situations and focus on what I can do at this moment. 

Recently some school conflicts came up mainly dealing with classes and the systematic approach to how classes need to be taken and the prerequisites. After doing everything possible to try and make things work the way I needed it, it did not work out and thats okay. That wasn't my initial reaction but I quickly had to remind myself I did everything I could and sometimes you need to let the things that affect your inner peace go.Because perhaps there is something that needs my time and attention like this blog.. so that one class I wanted might just allow some time for myself.

While going through this issue, I spoke to a teacher of mine and an advisor about my dilemma, they  both in different ways made me feel much better. I had this idea in my head that I needed to know everything about graphic design and perfect the skills needed before getting a job and take every possible clasS, but thats just not true. there are people working as designers who do not know exactly everything.. and its okay. If anything most learn more and improve their skills because they practice them for so long. While talking to my advisor, she told me a story about how a girl was doing fashion in our school and was even traveling to Paris related to fashion shows and today she is teacher of a different subject.(can't remember what subject for the life
of me). Her point was to show me how life happens and how no matter how much we plan, sometimes those plans change. Sometimes we change sometimes life forces us to change. 

What I  hope you will take from all this is, is that its important to live in the moment. Do what you can NOW. Sure, have a plan but don't get ahead of yourself do what you can now and the rest will follow.  Take time to reflect, its important don't let ideas or new wisdom melt away. 

Lastly don't worry so much, life is short.

I've also inserted some inspiring quotes.

Until next time,

 - K

A Collection of Brilliant Quotations

for a Beautiful Life.

Such a cute little book for quick reminders.